Bulacan oh Bulacan...

Bulacan oh Bulacan... Why is my heart broken?

It was short but I've noticed this lady since the past 6 months. Except that, I never got a chance to interact or communicate with her until recently. She's a simple lady who travels daily back and forth Bulacan - Makati - Bulacan for work. Imagine 5 hours on the road every single day, Monday to Friday... If I were in her position, I would have long moved to the vicinity. Pay more but saves my energy. At least I can wake up later and rest more, rather than having to wake up at 5 AM and starts the journey at 6 AM.

Yes, I have known that she is in a relationship with someone but I just can't help it. She's a very attractive person. After I start communicating with her, my interest towards her grows stronger. I have that shiver when I look at her... when I walk with her... and the worst part is.. I want to look good in front of her. I take care of myself in terms of appearance but with this stronger interest, I put more attention to my appearance.

The direct confirmation from her about her currently dating someone comes as a no surprise for me, but I do realized that I want to hear her say that she's not attached to anyone at the moment. I told her that the guy is a lucky person and I envy him. You know what...? I really do. I envy him with all my heart. I wish to be him. I was broken all over places... I am a bit bitter to accept the truth even though I already knew the fact long before.

I shared my story to a Filipinas friend of mine in my hometown back in Indonesia. She can directly tell that I'm falling for this lady... Am I? I don't even know... but after reading what I'm writing here... I think I do like this lady a lot. I was told to go forth if I really like her. The only thoughts in my mind are should I or should I not do it? What if I'm in her boyfriend's position? How would I feel? It's a dilemma, isn't it? I guess, in the end, the lady gets to choose the best for her. I'll try my best to win her heart but I'll back off if I can't make her happier than that guy. I only have one priority anyway... Make her happy, at all times hopefully... Love is the ability to sacrifice...

Oh Lady Bulacan... you just turned my world upside down...

Weekend Roundup

I met someone nice on Wednesday. It was such a random meeting as I was accompanying a good friend from Singapore. At last, a nice and decent female after two months in Jakarta. My instinct somehow tells me that I can trust her. I'm not sure what I'm feeling but I do think of her from time to time. I haven't had this feeling for almost a year and it feels great. Normally I'm very protective to myself and now I let myself go. I feel good talking to her. I feel good sharing my thoughts and feelings to her. It has been a while since the last time I felt that way... :)

I've been spending my whole weekend in the office. I was at the office till 00:30 on Friday, 23:30 on Saturday, and I'm expecting another long hours on Sunday. However, I still managed to have a good time at my usual hangout. Entertained a dear friend from Medan.

Definitely had a good weekend despite the long work hours. I should post all the long hours at the time sheet. I have been nice not to post any overtimes. :) But 12 hours of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday... I have to post. All these long hours are caused by bad early phase design which causes lots of headache. I think I'm more productive now (under alcohol influence) rather than when I was at the office. Maybe tomorrow I should drink couple of glasses of beer before I start working.

The Motivation of Neverending Learning

About a month ago, I heard about a motivation from one of my mentor at work and thought that I would share with all of you:

"Programming language evolves and from time to time, new languages will replace the older languages. I was asked at the interview for the position as Asia Pacific Java Evangelist on what I think about how Java will be in the next 10 years, and I literally told them that I don't know and I don't care. I could program anything in C++ faster than any of you programming equivalently in Java but sticking to one language won't pay my bills. I'll go where the trend is and learning new things is not a sin or betrayal to what you have known. Look at the newest OS X... it does not include Java runtime in its OS but instead it includes Ruby. Why? Apple thinks Java is obsolete...."