Bulacan oh Bulacan...

Bulacan oh Bulacan... Why is my heart broken?

It was short but I've noticed this lady since the past 6 months. Except that, I never got a chance to interact or communicate with her until recently. She's a simple lady who travels daily back and forth Bulacan - Makati - Bulacan for work. Imagine 5 hours on the road every single day, Monday to Friday... If I were in her position, I would have long moved to the vicinity. Pay more but saves my energy. At least I can wake up later and rest more, rather than having to wake up at 5 AM and starts the journey at 6 AM.

Yes, I have known that she is in a relationship with someone but I just can't help it. She's a very attractive person. After I start communicating with her, my interest towards her grows stronger. I have that shiver when I look at her... when I walk with her... and the worst part is.. I want to look good in front of her. I take care of myself in terms of appearance but with this stronger interest, I put more attention to my appearance.

The direct confirmation from her about her currently dating someone comes as a no surprise for me, but I do realized that I want to hear her say that she's not attached to anyone at the moment. I told her that the guy is a lucky person and I envy him. You know what...? I really do. I envy him with all my heart. I wish to be him. I was broken all over places... I am a bit bitter to accept the truth even though I already knew the fact long before.

I shared my story to a Filipinas friend of mine in my hometown back in Indonesia. She can directly tell that I'm falling for this lady... Am I? I don't even know... but after reading what I'm writing here... I think I do like this lady a lot. I was told to go forth if I really like her. The only thoughts in my mind are should I or should I not do it? What if I'm in her boyfriend's position? How would I feel? It's a dilemma, isn't it? I guess, in the end, the lady gets to choose the best for her. I'll try my best to win her heart but I'll back off if I can't make her happier than that guy. I only have one priority anyway... Make her happy, at all times hopefully... Love is the ability to sacrifice...

Oh Lady Bulacan... you just turned my world upside down...